"Beefy: About 22K words into the book. Call it 75 pages."
"Beefy: Got a thing happening here. It seems that an opportunity has
come up for Anthony, the friend who has invited me out here to
Portland and has been putting me up rent-free as I decompress from
nearly two decades of near-constant panic and sort out exactly...not
even so much what I'm going to do, but how I'm going to pursue doing
it and how to really reset everything and start over from the ground
up as a properly operating and constructed concern rather than an
ad-hoc attempt to do what I think is important in the world for me to
do while also scrambling to stay alive."
"Beefy: Don't panic, there's no bad news here."
"Beefy: So the opportunity is to possibly rent a house. It's not too
far from here, is a very decent little place, the rent is actually
lower than the townhouse we're currently in, and this is a thing
that's going to happen. We're moving. I'm going to be going along."
"Beefy: I haven't been asked to chip in on this nor have I asked to
pay a dime of rent since I've been here - which is good because I'm
basically risen to the level of "just getting by" now, but that's
without having to pay rent! - but there is a simple reality that the
faster he can come up with a deposit, the more quickly this will
happen and the more certain it is TO happen."
"Beefy: My other roommate has talked about raising some as well. From
what I gather the total amount in hand we need is a couple of grand.
I'm thinking about maybe rattling the cup here a little bit to help contribute directly to this situation, although again nobody's asking
me to and I'm at no risk of ending up on the streets or anything if I
don't. Still it would be nice to do, the move is a good one I think,
having a full-on house opens up some possibilities for all three of us
to get more creative in all of the stuff we're doing, and if I could
raise a few hundred or a thousand toward that it'd be super cool."
"Beefy: That said right now if I could raise a few hundred or a
thousand at all I *definitely should* be putting it into getting this
new computer properly built up and finished and running, and in any
event it's not like I've been producing a lot of new work here lately
anyway (for lack of interest in a much longer explanation let's just
say I've been recharging my batteries) so yeah. I may or may not make
a direct effort in that direction, depending on where things stand
around mid-week."
"Beefy: Other than that I've been mostly doing my little part time job
and minding my business, done a couple of little freebie side-gig
things designing some posters and a website, but mostly I've been in a
space - which I've DESPERATELY needed to be in for a LONG time - of
just taking stock, processing the whole last 15 years since I left NC
and even before then, looking at where we're at in the world and what
the situation is and how I can help by doing what I do when I'm forced
to compete against much better financed concerns deliberately
pretending to do what I do so they can advance misinformation and disinformation. How do you discuss that *without* sounding like you're
saying "don't trust anyone but me?" Etc."
"Beefy: So there's a lot going on right but 99% of it is going on
quietly between my ears in between doomscrolling, gaming, social
media, and trying to get the energy up for the next steps for me which include visits to the doctor and dentist and finding a full-time
therapist and so forth. All of that should start transpiring by the
end of this month. My job is going just fine and suits me, it just
doesn't pay much beyond enough to keep me eating and paying what minor
bills I do have."
"Beefy: Also on the agenda: looking at options to complete my degree."
"Beefy: Creatively what little work I've been doing lately has been
going into the book. I've been considering doing some kind of targeted kinkstarter type campaign for that, but again I may not bother. If I
can keep moving forward slowly I think I won't need to, and if I don't
need to there's no reason to bother; it'll mean more income when I
actually release the thing, for one thing, rather than having sort of borrowed against future sales. I've got some things percolating for
future recurring content as well, and of course there's the ongoing
rebuild of my current site, which honestly hasn't gotten much
attention over the last few weeks but remains ongoing nonetheless.
Some of that may shift and change if and when this move happens, as
well."
"Beefy: So that's what's up with me lately. I'll have an update in a
few days. Love y'all."
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