XPost: alt.society.mental-health, alt.support.schizophrenia

On Dec 20, 2023, Roger Kjøde wrote on sci.physics
(in article<8b9613d4-2ced-43a3-a2af-c4ec2c23ae1fn@googlegroups.com>):

I don't know if anybody will even care but this some of my story.
My name is Roger Kjøde and i am from a small place in Norway called Ørsta. Born 3/4-1978.
In 1999 i was at home in Ørsta while studying Physics in Trondheim, and one nigth while smoking hasjis i started talking to a voice in my head. I talked with this
voice for a long time and finally asked to talk to God. As i remember "God" gave me the mission
to convince everyone in the world that you can talk to God if you smoke/have smoked cannabis.
I asked if i could write something on the internet or talk to somebody but this was not enough.
I then suggested that the voice erased the memory of me talking to it and programm me to
complete the mission. The voice said yes. I went to bed and the day after i remebered nothing.
Some time later, I have no idea of how long I had the tougth "I have been reprogrammed" and while in Trondheim
I whent into a psycosis and wrote disturbed messages on usenet. I claimed that something i called
nanites (nano machined) where created by God an was your friends, and that you can talk to god with cannabis. (search google groups to read.)
It was discovered that i was sick and was committed to Ålesund psyciatric hospital. Diagnosis scitzofrenia. On this trip i asked to talk to God and he told me that there was a pill I must not take or everything would fail. Eventually i got well and functioned fine, I worked a year and studied in Oslo, but also here i was commited, twise. In 2020 I moved back to Ørsta, not finding work in Oslo and with bad grades after my masterdegree. I had beed troubled a long time with horrible anxiety, and i was desperate. A "friend" gave me two pills from his medicines and told me what they where called, but with my shit memory when i got home I forgot their names and did not remember if this was the pill God warned me ageinst. So i took one. Then i got mental. I got the ideea i was a telepath and got really sick. I was committed. While commited I posted confused horrible messages on facebook and some insane messages on twitter. And just then the war i Ukraine broke out. :O
I got well, But just before the attack on Israel i got sick agein and posted some strange facebook messages.
I got committed agein, and discovered a message on usenet (google gropus) posted in 2001 wich i did not remember writing, so in pure reflex i wrote "I did not not write this" (Did God write it?) It said that bacterofagues are machines (nanites I think) that can controll you you to do evil, and that emp will destroy them, and that one does not need cannabis to talk to God. (serch usenet for roger kjode)
Now i am at home but unwell. I have problems consentrating and a voice in my head at some times, and I feel horrible guilt. Have i destryed the world by taking a pill? (shit memory)
Regor. Roger backwards means: I am ruled, I am governed" "I am guided, I am steered" in latin...
And Kjøde is K-jew in norwegian. King of the jews?

I hope I am just mad. :)

Roger Kjøde

Roger Kjøde

I think you should probably avoid cannabis if it gets you committed,
though I have had luck avoiding cannabis and alcohol 1--9 days
before full moon and indulging in moderation at other times.
It may also help to share the cannabis rather than smoking a
whole joint by yourself. Also indica would be more relaxing
than sativa.

Are you on any psychiatric meds? If so, which one(s)?
I don’t have voices, and am diagnosed bipolar with occasional
psychosis, and am on 1000 mg divalproex sodium
plus a top up of 7.5 mg olanzapine nightly.

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