• I FORGOT TO

    From %@21:1/5 to All on Sun Jul 31 20:09:37 2022
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

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  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 16:56:54 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 17:02:06 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims

    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
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  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 16:45:38 2022
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:05:44 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 17:32:47 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 17:31:39 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:19:31 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:17:57 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:23:35 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:25:42 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:26:55 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:25:35 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:30:24 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:29:56 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:32:32 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:33:55 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:34:10 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    you said you took all the responsibility

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:36:18 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:37:21 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then.

    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:39:38 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:38:55 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:37:22 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)
    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then.

    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.
    i wish i could be euthanized

    i'm not even cracking a smile. i'm dead serious,

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:38:54 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:37:22 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)
    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then.

    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.

    i wish i could be euthanized

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:44:49 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:43:49 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    you said you took all the responsibility

    show me

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 18:45:56 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:38:55 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:37:22 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)
    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then. >>>
    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.
    i wish i could be euthanized

    i'm not even cracking a smile. i'm dead serious,

    https://uncustomary.org/50-things-youre-sick/

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:57:58 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:46:02 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:38:55 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:37:22 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)
    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then. >>>
    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.
    i wish i could be euthanized

    i'm not even cracking a smile. i'm dead serious,

    https://uncustomary.org/50-things-youre-sick/

    i'm too depressed to read all that

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 18:58:24 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 19:00:55 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:46:02 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:38:55 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:37:22 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)
    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then. >>>>>
    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.
    i wish i could be euthanized

    i'm not even cracking a smile. i'm dead serious,

    https://uncustomary.org/50-things-youre-sick/

    i'm too depressed to read all that

    no surprise you never take my advise you just ask for it and then say no

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 19:01:07 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:43:53 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    you said you took all the responsibility

    show me

    blow me

    you said it, you know it, i don't know how long ago (it was semi-recently) or where the hell in the 5 groups we frequent you wrote it

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to Rachel on Tue Aug 2 19:01:46 2022
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 19:05:19 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 19:06:55 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:00:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:46:02 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:38:55 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:37:22 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:36:19 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start
    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)
    and i have one person to talk to on the phone a little bit now and then.

    that's it.

    otherwise, total isolation.
    i wish i could be euthanized

    i'm not even cracking a smile. i'm dead serious,

    https://uncustomary.org/50-things-youre-sick/

    i'm too depressed to read all that

    no surprise you never take my advise you just ask for it and then say no

    i didn't ask

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:12:50 2022
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:04:55 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:05:21 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem
    why are you being so prickly

    you don't have to go hide in the corner with your tail between your legs

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:14:25 2022
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:05:21 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem
    why are you being so prickly

    you don't have to go hide in the corner with your tail between your legs

    well if you're just going to be smart ass go tell your stories to
    someone else

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:24:38 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:17:47 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues
    because you burned your face into my brain

    because you're the problem

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:24:23 2022
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    you've never seen it

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 20:16:10 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:14:29 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:05:21 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem
    why are you being so prickly

    you don't have to go hide in the corner with your tail between your legs

    well if you're just going to be smart ass go tell your stories to
    someone else

    nobody cares

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 20:17:46 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:27:24 2022
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:24:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    you've never seen it

    this is tiring

    then quit

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:25:20 2022
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:17:47 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues
    because you burned your face into my brain

    because you're the problem

    then quit

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 20:26:20 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:24:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    you've never seen it

    this is tiring

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 20:34:29 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:27:56 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:25:26 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:17:47 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues
    because you burned your face into my brain

    because you're the problem

    then quit

    quit life ? i already told you i wish i could.

    quit me

    die

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Tue Aug 2 20:28:15 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:27:28 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:24:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    you've never seen it

    this is tiring

    then quit

    i think i will....uh....retire

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Tue Aug 2 20:34:46 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:28:16 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:27:28 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:24:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    you've never seen it

    this is tiring

    then quit
    i think i will....uh....retire

    good-nite coleman

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to All on Wed Aug 3 03:58:12 2022
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:43:53 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    you said you took all the responsibility

    show me

    why did you say "show me?"

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Wed Aug 3 04:28:26 2022
    On Wednesday, August 3, 2022 at 3:58:13 AM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:43:53 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    you said you took all the responsibility

    show me
    why did you say "show me?"

    sorry, let me emend the question.

    did you say show me b/c you don't remember saying/writing that?

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Wed Aug 3 10:23:52 2022
    XPost: alt.slack

    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:43:53 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:19:35 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:32:48 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:31:41 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again

    i didn't want to be in public with you :(((

    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims
    LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?
    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.
    don't you just want to chop yours off?

    is it hard to answer when you were there before, and i wasn't, and now i can't bear it any longer, and talked, and you don't feel like being all, okay, whenever you want, never mind about my needs?

    it's just...you forced me back in public, i feel like i'm being played like a pawn.

    your life is not my job

    you've (pl.) mixed them up together, and i did not ask for this

    i didn't do anything and won't take blame for how you are

    you said you took all the responsibility

    show me

    blow me

    you said it, you know it, i don't know how long ago (it was semi-recently) or where the hell in the 5 groups we frequent you wrote it

    you told me you couldn't blow me,
    because you choke on kite string

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to roach on Wed Aug 3 10:26:51 2022
    XPost: alt.slack

    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, Rachel wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me...

    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and alone...and with so many contradictory instructions and guidance...my mind has been mangled...

    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either

    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues

    because you burned your face into my brain

    i am quite handsome as a matter of fact

    https://imgur.com/a/UXzxN8a

    --- SoupGate-Win32 v1.05
    * Origin: fsxNet Usenet Gateway (21:1/5)
  • From %@21:1/5 to All on Wed Aug 3 10:29:48 2022
    XPost: alt.slack

    % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:25:26 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:17:47 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 8:12:55 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    roach wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 7:01:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:44:52 PM UTC-7, % wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:33:59 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:30:30 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:25:49 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 6:18:00 PM UTC-7, % wrote: >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 5:02:07 PM UTC-7, >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Rachel wrote:
    On Tuesday, August 2, 2022 at 4:57:01 PM UTC-7, % >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> wrote:
    Rachel wrote:
    On Sunday, July 31, 2022 at 8:09:46 PM UTC-7, % >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> wrote:
    .

    add soc.penpals when i reloaded my groups again >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i didn't want to be in public with you :((( >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i know , most abusers like to isolate their victims >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> LOL!!

    r u bein' silly ? :)?

    i'm so sorry if you are mad, like you were here, and >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> i wasn't....it's just....so_hard for me... >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i cry practically every day...i'm so lost...and >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> alone...and with so many contradictory instructions >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> and guidance...my mind has been mangled... >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    and ifeel like a FOOL, turning HAPPY, all by myself, >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> i literally want to stab my ykwhat to death, and it's >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> like you are trying to FORCE ME.

    it's DISGUSTING.

    what happened to me, out of my MIND.

    look at the rest of the people here ,
    they're here all day everyday ,
    i don't imagine they live super lives either >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
    i'm sure they aren't (i wouldn't think) suffering from >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> psychological torture, like i have been. we're talking, >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> worse than anything you've ever seen in a movie or >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> anything.

    we all handle life in different ways

    yes, i am very sick

    then do what sick people do

    looking for a suitable friend...

    good start

    why is it so hard ?

    some people get married, have families.

    i barely have anyone in the whole world. i don't even have >>>>>>>>>>> anyone to go out with. (a guy/man)

    i can tell you mister right isn't in the kitchen

    i don't have a mister right

    not my problem

    why are you being so prickly

    why do you think it's up to me to solve your life issues
    because you burned your face into my brain

    because you're the problem

    then quit

    quit life ? i already told you i wish i could.

    quit


    back to torlling teh depressed peps again

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