• i talked to the sweetest....

    From Rachel@21:1/5 to All on Mon Jul 31 08:41:06 2023
    young man at apple, when i was in the hospital.

    i feel SO BADLY, because i keep thinking i hurt his feelings.

    he was SO excited (well, not THAT excited, but excited!) to talk to me, he goes, "*Rachel* Ben-*LEVI!*?!?!?" and so tbh, i myself, was SO CONFUSED!!!!!

    and worried, well, quite frankly, let's just put it this way, like the video they made-up of me on stage, remember, holding my head down like that???? (that's where i was laughing when i saw it, but not in this instance!!!)

    this was pretty much the first time this has ever happened to me, so i asked him gently, "do you *know* me?" not accusingly or anything, just totally unsure, as in do you read me on the computer, like, i'm sorry, this is terribly confusing to me i don't
    get your reaction.....?

    and he hesitated, and then he said disappointedly, but still with his sweet voice, "i was just excited to talk to you."

    i didn't want to even THINK that this is so public....so i just responded as though his reason made sense even to an anonymous person, and dropped it immediately, accepted the answer as satisfactory, and went on and asked my computer question.

    and i keep thinking about it, i tried to give him a head's up in another group earlier...

    anyway, i still feel SO BADLY, because he was younger, and i would never want to infringe in any way upon his joy, and i don't mean it to people out there, it's not the real me, i mean, i'm just not comfortable with this, so please, don't take it
    personally. NOBODY VALIDATES THIS, SO I AM NOT SURPRISINGLY TERRIBLY CONFUSED AS TO WHAT THE FREAK IS GOING ON!!!!!!! if i KNEW and felt it was OK that EVERYBODY (?) knows me, i would totally play along, and smile, and be happy back, etc.... (i think, i
    don't know, this is crazy....)

    that's all i wanted to say. i would just HATE IT if i accidentally made him feel badly, and if he's reading this, i just wanted him to know. 🙂

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to roach on Wed Aug 16 23:47:43 2023
    On Wednesday, August 16, 2023 at 11:35:43 PM UTC-7, roach wrote:
    On Monday, July 31, 2023 at 8:41:07 AM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    young man at apple, when i was in the hospital.

    i feel SO BADLY, because i keep thinking i hurt his feelings.

    he was SO excited (well, not THAT excited, but excited!) to talk to me, he goes, "*Rachel* Ben-*LEVI!*?!?!?" and so tbh, i myself, was SO CONFUSED!!!!!

    and worried, well, quite frankly, let's just put it this way, like the video they made-up of me on stage, remember, holding my head down like that???? (that's where i was laughing when i saw it, but not in this instance!!!)

    this was pretty much the first time this has ever happened to me, so i asked him gently, "do you *know* me?" not accusingly or anything, just totally unsure, as in do you read me on the computer, like, i'm sorry, this is terribly confusing to me i
    don't get your reaction.....?

    and he hesitated, and then he said disappointedly, but still with his sweet voice, "i was just excited to talk to you."

    i didn't want to even THINK that this is so public....so i just responded as though his reason made sense even to an anonymous person, and dropped it immediately, accepted the answer as satisfactory, and went on and asked my computer question.

    and i keep thinking about it, i tried to give him a head's up in another group earlier...

    anyway, i still feel SO BADLY, because he was younger, and i would never want to infringe in any way upon his joy, and i don't mean it to people out there, it's not the real me, i mean, i'm just not comfortable with this, so please, don't take it
    personally. NOBODY VALIDATES THIS, SO I AM NOT SURPRISINGLY TERRIBLY CONFUSED AS TO WHAT THE FREAK IS GOING ON!!!!!!! if i KNEW and felt it was OK that EVERYBODY (?) knows me, i would totally play along, and smile, and be happy back, etc.... (i think, i
    don't know, this is crazy....)

    that's all i wanted to say. i would just HATE IT if i accidentally made him feel badly, and if he's reading this, i just wanted him to know. 🙂
    he must be very special, b/c this hardly *ever* happens to me, only a few times or so, but never with my name, only around town, and it has turned out, like in a couple instances, it wasn't me, it was just my looks rang some kind of bell with them as
    to someone ELSE they knew (jewish).

    once a woman just started talking to me about bob dylan out of the blue on the bus, and i swear, she wasn't an actress, it was so weird, she was black, and i *think* involved with the mormons (latter-day saints). i've had interactions and contact with
    them, took their literature, and made friends with one, maggie, whom i have bumped into several times around town, whole foods, norm's (with her nephew going off to college), we say hi, once we hugged, she was really nice........anyway, i must have
    reminded her of him, the woman on the bus that is? (in the course of our conversation, she mentioned she knew a woman who claimed to have had an affair with him. :-/// i mean, i'm the one who asked, was it an affair, saying, but he was married then, etc..
    .i wrote to % about it!!! she told me her name and everything. the woman who said she knew him. i dunno.... :) i dunno NOTHING!!!!!!!! so you can see how it's not that easy for me to share ENTHUSIASM about MEETING ME. i'm still NOBODY. and i plan to
    REMAIN nobody, until i am mrs. bob dylan. probably all alone committed in an insane asylum somewhere. :-(((((((((((((((((((( thanks a lot everybody!!!!!!!)

    well, since nobody is telling me anything, i'm gonna go see if ash is still up.

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  • From roach@21:1/5 to Rachel on Wed Aug 16 23:35:42 2023
    On Monday, July 31, 2023 at 8:41:07 AM UTC-7, Rachel wrote:
    young man at apple, when i was in the hospital.

    i feel SO BADLY, because i keep thinking i hurt his feelings.

    he was SO excited (well, not THAT excited, but excited!) to talk to me, he goes, "*Rachel* Ben-*LEVI!*?!?!?" and so tbh, i myself, was SO CONFUSED!!!!!

    and worried, well, quite frankly, let's just put it this way, like the video they made-up of me on stage, remember, holding my head down like that???? (that's where i was laughing when i saw it, but not in this instance!!!)

    this was pretty much the first time this has ever happened to me, so i asked him gently, "do you *know* me?" not accusingly or anything, just totally unsure, as in do you read me on the computer, like, i'm sorry, this is terribly confusing to me i don'
    t get your reaction.....?

    and he hesitated, and then he said disappointedly, but still with his sweet voice, "i was just excited to talk to you."

    i didn't want to even THINK that this is so public....so i just responded as though his reason made sense even to an anonymous person, and dropped it immediately, accepted the answer as satisfactory, and went on and asked my computer question.

    and i keep thinking about it, i tried to give him a head's up in another group earlier...

    anyway, i still feel SO BADLY, because he was younger, and i would never want to infringe in any way upon his joy, and i don't mean it to people out there, it's not the real me, i mean, i'm just not comfortable with this, so please, don't take it
    personally. NOBODY VALIDATES THIS, SO I AM NOT SURPRISINGLY TERRIBLY CONFUSED AS TO WHAT THE FREAK IS GOING ON!!!!!!! if i KNEW and felt it was OK that EVERYBODY (?) knows me, i would totally play along, and smile, and be happy back, etc.... (i think, i
    don't know, this is crazy....)

    that's all i wanted to say. i would just HATE IT if i accidentally made him feel badly, and if he's reading this, i just wanted him to know. 🙂

    he must be very special, b/c this hardly *ever* happens to me, only a few times or so, but never with my name, only around town, and it has turned out, like in a couple instances, it wasn't me, it was just my looks rang some kind of bell with them as to
    someone ELSE they knew (jewish).

    once a woman just started talking to me about bob dylan out of the blue on the bus, and i swear, she wasn't an actress, it was so weird, she was black, and i *think* involved with the mormons (latter-day saints). i've had interactions and contact with
    them, took their literature, and made friends with one, maggie, whom i have bumped into several times around town, whole foods, norm's (with her nephew going off to college), we say hi, once we hugged, she was really nice........anyway, i must have
    reminded her of him, the woman on the bus that is? (in the course of our conversation, she mentioned she knew a woman who claimed to have had an affair with him. :-/// i mean, i'm the one who asked, was it an affair, saying, but he was married then, etc..
    .i wrote to % about it!!! she told me her name and everything. the woman who said she knew him. i dunno.... :) i dunno NOTHING!!!!!!!! so you can see how it's not that easy for me to share ENTHUSIASM about MEETING ME. i'm still NOBODY. and i plan to
    REMAIN nobody, until i am mrs. bob dylan. probably all alone committed in an insane asylum somewhere. :-(((((((((((((((((((( thanks a lot everybody!!!!!!!)

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